Devil Dog Needs Help?

Hey everybody im a marine that just got out of the corp, but i was hazed out of the corp and didn't finished my contract but my problem is that i started snorting percocet just to make it through the day i'm 20 and i still have a drinking problem when i was in the corp, i'm depressed and smoking spice and pain med's my mom threating to kick me out, i been looking for help online but they need money before they can help me and i'm broke and there are no jobs, there are days i just wanna shot my self but i'm a goddamn marine marines don't quit i just feel so lost.